Friday, November 16, 2007♠

damn, im just not motivated to study.
here i am blogging. why?
coz im bored.
im supposed to be studying right now.
but no. im blogging.
damn. whats gonna happen to me?

fail poly. repeat module.
if not, dropout. expelled.
can't take final year test.
go to ITE. mix with the wrong kids.
be a bad boy.
then get a job.
as a drug dealer.
or maybe a mafia. who knows.
then i'd go to jail. and be a convict.
destroy my future and look back.
and realise how stupid i was last time not to study.

wow im thinking way too far.
but this still doesnt help motivate me to study.

hmm, MST coming up. and i think im gonna fail everything.
theres too much to learn, and soo lil time.
with me going at this rate, i think im gonna fail.
and get a GPA of .. i dunno 1?
and i still dont understand how the F is my GPA related to my grades.
i dont even know how to count them.

this portion of my blog is random. so just ignore.

ok. im beginning to feel that strong bond between (____-___-_____) are just falling apart.
last time, we used to hang out with each other alot.
now, you all have got your own cliques. i realised this after somebody mentioned it to me.
the cousins with the cousins. the 'heroes' and mon always with their games and hang out with their friends. and for me, well, im left out. i dunno. maybe im just bad at socialising. or issit that im bad in the sense that people dont like me for who i am? wth am i asking this qns. i dont really know. and wth did i wrote this in my blog? that is another enigma to me. but one things for sure, i missed the old times.

aniwaes. back to my poly life.
did you know that i have been failing my tests, all the way.
and if i fail this one, i think i have to quit my job.
but i love my job. its more enjoyable then studying.
but my job brings me to nowhere. it just drains your energy.
but still, i love it.
but. fuck the butts.

and that still doesnt motivates me to study.
damn, i need to go some psychotherapy operation.
so that i'll study even if im not motivated.
damn. this sucks.

i think ill start to force myself to study.
and ouh yea, before that.
i wanna say sry zara coz i cant send you off.
and sry for bugging you to teach me maths, although i know you are very2 busy.
and thanks for volunteering.

yea thats about it.
ouh yea, one last bit.
i miss my friends.

Shin~

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