Thursday, January 31, 2008♠

Gay.

should gays be allowed to have sex?
personally, i'd say yes.
why? because anybody can have sex with each other.
i'm partially correct though.
why? thats because, they can't have sex with anybody they like.
unless that somebody wants to have sex with gays.
be it a man or a women.
but actually, gays having sex with one another is another issue.
i think that it shouldn't be happening here in singapore.
i know i'm not open-minded in this.
but thats just me.

imagine this.
one faithful day, you have a son.
or a daughter. which ever way it is.
and they grow up to be soft / boyish (respectively)
and then you, as a parent, got to know that they're having sex with another guy/lady (respectively)
arent you gonna be ashamed of your son/daughter?
i will.
God made us into man and women respectively.
and were made to love the opposite sex.
not the other way round.
ain't i right some way or another?
unless if youre born to be a shemale or something.
then thats a different case.
seriously.
alright lets move on.

Love & Lust.

whats the different between them?
well, my definition of love is..
ouh wait. i don't really know.
its a strong feeling that you have for one another.
and when you do fall in love, nothing else matters i guess.
as long as youre happy with each other, then it can make your day.
and about love being blind, i still can't figure that out yet.
ask those who have been in relationship.
i'm not a professional in these kinda stuffs.
godamnit. i dont know the definition of love.
what a loser.
well what i know when love turns into lust.
its is a feeling when you get too intimate with each other.
and you can't control the urge of having sex with the other party.
one way or another.
and that is what i call lust.
maybe my definition is wrong.
so critics who thinks my definition of this love and lust thingy is wrong, please tell me.
im not the guy-who-knows-it-all you know.
=)

and you guys must be wondering why i post these stuffs out.
well, its because partially i'm bored.
and because its boring posting my daily motions.
ouhwell.

chao.

AMIR~

Posted at 1:33AM

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Tuesday, January 29, 2008♠

ah yess.
exams are over.
and i feel soo free.
so, this is what i did today.
just hours after my last exam.

chatted with my cousin.
and other people too.
did a blogskin for the cousins blog that my cousin made.
send/receive songs from people.
eat a tuburitos (or however its spelt)
getting rid of a nose blockage.
digging my nose.

yea. thats alot of stuffs.
ouh yea i forgot.
i changed my blogskin too.
cool shit.
except for the pinkish part though.
i cant seem to get rid of the pink parts in my blog.
i dont know why!
but it has a kinda cute aura to it so ill just leave it be.

ouh my blog is soo colourful.
just like that rainbow there.

alrights. chao.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Saturday, January 26, 2008♠

ouhkay.
maths wasnt soo good.
thats all there is to it.
at least this was a neat FAILed drawing..
could have scored an A for Attitude.
but what the heck.

i scribbled everywhere.
the paper made no sense to me.
it became alienish.
but for all i know, im left with one more paper.
and im prepared to retake engineering maths 1.
sad but its the reality.
i can't pick up maths in a day, you see.
nvm. cut the topic.

the question asked about 100cm wire.
cut into how many pieces, to make that triangle with the circle thingy like what i've drawn there.
it.. was.. stupidly... not maths.
only fetish geeks who loves looking at girls panties knows how to do this gay question set by none other then the gay maths department of EEE. ignore what i've just said and look at the drawings. at least i drew a heart. =)

ouh yea. that question. that gay question.
it cost 14marks. hey! i think the number of questions i did and the marks added althogether didn't even reach 30marks! wow. what a loser.
argh, fuck it. its just not worth the time to think it through again.
coz its over. the past is the past.

i wish i could go back to living the a life of a secondary school kid.
where i have to make different excuses everytime i go to school with no homework done.
trying to keep my hair short.
wearing socks above my ankles (hey wait, i still do that).
wearing out my school shoes till i go to school with holes in my shoes.
walking in the rain for no reason.
kicking milo packets in the canteen till i fall.
hanging out on high-level storey buildings and dreaming of our dreams till some blue shirt guys busts us.
going home at 6pm almost everytime.

ouh god, im missing secondary school life after i said all that.
i hate growing up.
coz everybody wants to be matured soo fast.
but why..??
i dont even know.
alrights. ciao.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Friday, January 25, 2008♠

damn shit.
thats it. im ready to repeat my module!
wait till my parents finds out about all of this.

aniwaes, i was suppose to study today.
but lazyness got the worst of me.
aniwaes, WHO CAN STUDY MATHS IN ONE FREAKING DAY?!?
especially for a slow learner like me.
dang thats just.. impossible.

ok so met nures today.
was asking her help to teach me.
I ASKED. AND I NEVER DID STUDY.
soo... me going out of this house, for no apparent reason
..is sooo damn gay.
but still, it was a fun day.
ouh yea. at last. i got the song!
its like.. THE SONG.
yea. its techno. to be precise, a house song.
superb.
it just keeps you moving for all those techno lovers.
haha! enough of my techno shit.
aniwaes, nures, i NEVER did get exhausted of your "tetetet" noise and your"headbanging" stuff.
HAHAHAA! i was too busy feeling the song, craving for its bassbeats.
haha! *whatever amir"
aniwaes, yea, met roq after that.
and ooooo... maybe i wanna get a job there.
lets see yea. who knows.

nures asked me to put her name on this post of mine.
so i shall put it here.
like right below of this line.

NURES.

yea. thats all folks.
and listen to Philosophy - Tom Snare.
its a good-catchy song if youre craving for techno songs.
if not, then this maybe the most irritating matrep song you've ever heard.

wait. i almost forgot something.

HAPPY 18th Birthdae Farhan Sweat Teddy Mon!
(AKA Muhammad Farhan Bin Aliman)

alright chao.

AMIR~

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008♠

Phone Call Anxieties.

these past days haven't been great for me.
except when im having fun though.
the others, are just shitty.

and i realised something.
there really is another side of me.
just waiting to be unleashed to this world.
and it took over me for the past few days when i was
at the most weakest point of my life i shall say.
and well, i seriously don't know why.
maybe everything just came together at the same time.
thats why im like this.

i really need to do a self-reflection on my behaviour for now onwards.
other then that, im fine. or so i think i am.

well, here's something.
i havent been to CBTL AMK HUB since last... friday.
hell yea.

anyways, i still dont like whats become of that place.
it was once our turf. we once owned it and made it ours.
there were rules to be bended, but not broken fully.
but now its much .. much more boring.
backstabbers thrive in that place.
no, i shall say backstabber w/o the S.
wanna see him? just make sure you come there in the daytime.
if not, its hard finding that fag.

i shall not go into details.
ouh shit, my other half is seriously taking over me.
like right now.
ill go now. see you people in the near future.

fcuk.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Tuesday, January 22, 2008♠

______18TH________
HAPPY BIR^DAE ZARA!
well, its her 18th bdae today!
and i hope her bdae wish this year is to finish up her bdae cakes everytime starting from next year. boleh tk zara? Hehe.
soo heres the pictures from sunday's outing!
its kinda late to post this but yea.
better late then never right?
=)

Enjoy~

err, i think thats all larh. 5 pix already very troublesome.

haha! kk chao.

AMIR~

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Monday, January 21, 2008♠

about self-centered-ness.

some people should freaking read this if they have a guilty conscious after just reading the title.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) is a pattern of self-centered or egotistical behavior that shows up in thinking and behavior in a lot of different situations and activities. People with NPD won't (or can't) change their behavior even when it causes problems at work or when other people complain about the way they act, or when their behavior causes a lot of emotional distress to others (or themselves? none of my narcissists ever admit to being distressed by their own behavior -- they always blame other people for any problems). This pattern of self-centered or egotistical behavior is not caused by current drug or alcohol use, head injury, acute psychotic episodes, or any other illness, but has been going on steadily at least since adolescence or early adulthood. NPD interferes with people's functioning in their occupations and in their relationships:Mild impairment when self-centered or egotistical behavior results in occasional minor problems, but the person is generally doing pretty well.Moderate impairment when self-centered or egotistical behavior results in: (a) missing days from work, household duties, or school, (b) significant performance problems as a wage-earner, homemaker, or student, (c) frequently avoiding or alienating friends, (d) significant risk of harming self or others (frequent suicidal preoccupation; often neglecting family, or frequently abusing others or committing criminal acts).Severe impairment when self-centered or egotistical behavior results in: (a) staying in bed all day, (b) totally alienating all friends and family, (c) severe risk of harming self or others (failing to maintain personal hygiene; persistent danger of suicide, abuse, or crime).

1. An exaggerated sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)
Translation: Grandiosity is the hallmark of narcissism. So what is grandiose?
The simplest everyday way that narcissists show their exaggerated sense of self-importance is by talking about family, work, life in general as if there is nobody else in the picture. Whatever they may be doing, in their own view, they are the star, and they give the impression that they are bearing heroic responsibility for their family or department or company, that they have to take care of everything because their spouses or co-workers are undependable, uncooperative, or otherwise unfit. They ignore or denigrate the abilities and contributions of others and complain that they receive no help at all; they may inspire your sympathy or admiration for their stoicism in the face of hardship or unstinting self-sacrifice for the good of (undeserving) others. But this everyday grandiosity is an aspect of narcissism that you may never catch on to unless you visit the narcissist's home or workplace and see for yourself that others are involved and are pulling their share of the load and, more often than not, are also pulling the narcissist's share as well. An example is the older woman who told me with a sigh that she knew she hadn't been a perfect mother but she just never had any help at all -- and she said this despite knowing that I knew that she had worn out and discarded two devoted husbands and had lived in her parents' pocket (and pocketbook) as long as they lived, quickly blowing her substantial inheritance on flaky business schemes. Another example is claiming unusual benefits or spectacular results from ordinary effort and investment, giving the impression that somehow the narcissist's time and money are worth more than other people's.

In popular usage, the terms narcissism, narcissist, and narcissistic denote absurd vanity and are applied to people whose ambitions and aspirations are much grander than their evident talents. Sometimes these terms are applied to people who are simply full of themselves -- even when their real achievements are spectacular. Outstanding performers are not always modest, but they aren't grandiose if their self-assessments are realistic; e.g., Muhammad Ali, then Cassius Clay, was notorious for boasting "I am the greatest!" and also pointing out that he was the prettiest, but he was the greatest and the prettiest for a number of years, so his self-assessments weren't grandiose. Some narcissists are flamboyantly boastful and self-aggrandizing, but many are inconspicuous in public, saving their conceit and autocratic opinions for their nearest and dearest. Common conspicuous grandiose behaviors include expecting special treatment or admiration on the basis of claiming (a) to know important, powerful or famous people or (b) to be extraordinarily intelligent or talented. As a real-life example, I used to have a neighbor who told his wife that he was the youngest person since Sir Isaac Newton to take a doctorate at Oxford. The neighbor gave no evidence of a world-class education, so I looked up Newton and found out that Newton had completed his baccalaureate at the age of twenty-two (like most people) and spent his entire academic career at Cambridge. The grandiose claims of narcissists are superficially plausible fabrications, readily punctured by a little critical consideration. The test is performance: do they deliver the goods? (There's also the special situation of a genius who's also strongly narcissistic, as perhaps Frank Lloyd Wright. Just remind yourself that the odds are that you'll meet at least 1000 narcissists for every genius you come across.)

2. Preoccupation with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love

Translation: Narcissists cultivate solipsistic or "autistic" fantasies, which is to say that they live in their own little worlds (and react with affront when reality dares to intrude).

3. Believes he is "special" and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)

Translation: Narcissists think that everyone who is not special and superior is worthless. By definition, normal, ordinary, and average aren't special and superior, and so, to narcissists, they are worthless.

4. Requires excessive admiration

Translation: Excessive in two ways: they want praise, compliments, deference, and expressions of envy all the time, and they want to be told that everything they do is better than what others can do. Sincerity is not an issue here; all that matter are frequency and volume.

5. Has a sense of entitlement

Translation: They expect automatic compliance with their wishes or especially favorable treatment, such as thinking that they should always be able to go first and that other people should stop whatever they're doing to do what the narcissists want, and may react with hurt or rage when these expectations are frustrated.

6. Selfishly takes advantage of others to achieve his own ends

Translation: Narcissists use other people to get what they want without caring about the cost to the other people.

7. Lacks empathy

Translation: They are unwilling to recognize or sympathize with other people's feelings and needs. They "tune out" when other people want to talk about their own problems. In clinical terms, empathy is the ability to recognize and interpret other people's emotions. Lack of empathy may take two different directions: (a) accurate interpretation of others' emotions with no concern for others' distress, which is characteristic of psychopaths; and (b) the inability to recognize and accurately interpret other people's emotions, which is the NPD style. This second form of defective empathy may (rarely) go so far as alexithymia, or no words for emotions, and is found with psychosomatic illnesses, i.e., medical conditions in which emotion is experienced somatically rather than psychically. People with personality disorders don't have the normal body-ego identification and regard their bodies only instrumentally, i.e., as tools to use to get what they want, or, in bad states, as torture chambers that inflict on them meaningless suffering. Self-described narcissists who've written to me say that they are aware that their feelings are different from other people's, mostly that they feel less, both in strength and variety (and which the narcissists interpret as evidence of their own superiority); some narcissists report "numbness" and the inability to perceive meaning in other people's emotions.

8. Is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him

Translation: No translation needed.

9. Shows arrogant, haughty, patronizing, or contemptuous behaviors or attitudes

Translation: They treat other people like dirt.

taken from http://www.halcyon.com/jmashmun/npd/dsm-iv.html

some people might read this and change.

at least for the better of course.

if not, then that means their ego is bigger then their status.

assholes.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Sunday, January 20, 2008♠

PURE COINCIDENCE.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
itu prempuan nak gi _____ kepek.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
relek sua.

Amir says:
eh sial larh

Amir says:
i was just gonna talk abt that.

Amir says:
nures, youre always one step ahead of me sial.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
power.

Amir says:
i hate that. grrrr.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
hahahaa!

In another word,it's bitch. says:
sorry brother.

Amir says:
nvm2.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
cos im the best in this universe.

In another word,it's bitch. says:
hahaha!

Amir says:
at least you think what im gonna think next

In another word,it's bitch. says:
no no aku mcm heroes.

Amir says:
yaya. nnti aku jadi hiro nakamura baru tau.

and it took me like 3~5mins t get over the pure coincidence thingy.
but really, it was like really pure coincidence.
dont mind about that stupid top part.

chao.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Saturday, January 19, 2008♠

fuck that black-skinned, ass-wipin', gayporn watching, backstabbing, chopstick-looking, fucked-up faced, two-headed son of a bitch.

may he burn in hell, especially that supertan-ned ass of his.

AMIR~

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Friday, January 18, 2008♠

i can't be bothered anymore.
lets enjoy.

AMIR~

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Monday, January 14, 2008♠

net is being a bitch right now so ill update this very very very very briefly.

the past weekend was the best weekend ive ever had.
friday, went on a trip wif syamil and hana.
haha! that was the post below, so i shall not post on that.
saturday was gonna be a typical boring day for me.
until zara decides to go to watch "One Missed Call"
i practically spoilt the mood with my lame theories.
but who cares, the ghost was gay.
no, it was a girl. yea.
that girl was emo sia.
kk nvm. aniwaes, it was fun.
didnt know girls use the popcorn paper box to cover their eyes from the screen.
i just knew that on that fine day. haha!
and yea, after that helped a blind man.
kay i shouldnt say that. like showing off sia.
but i just did. so yea, nvm.
and then after much consideration, we went to fushan garden.
and camwhored.
i got like 144pictures in mypictures. geddit? =_="
nvm. yea. but im not sooo freaking rajin sangat utk post tu sumer.
haha! sry that was malay. lazy to translate.
back to what i was saying. camwhored for 1 and 1/2 hrs.
i didnt realise that till i realise i went back at 10.30
ok. so aniwaes, fuck the aniwaes.
that was it.
super fun. didnt know camwhoring could be that fun and long.
giler. kay nvm.
fuck the nvms larhhhhh.
soo, that was saturday.
now sunday.
went to sentosa.
yea. met my melbourne cousins.
damn, the 1st thing he asked me was "smlm tk pergi MOS ker? ader event kn."
blah2. as he was from melbourne, of course he knew how to shuffle.
haha! and yea, he said abt the bass agent people coming.
how some people shuffle like maddogs.
the hardstyle republics. how some of the people there dance like those russian dancing.
kickng the leg here and there. haha! fun larh. damn i wish i can go there with him.
grrrrrr. no freedom sux.
so yea, enjoyed sentosa. LUGE ride was like, drifting. fun.
except, we couldnt drift. coz its slow.
not slow as in slow, but just slow enuf that i cant drift. whtever sia.
then too the skyride.
ouh yea, b4 that. watched 4D magix. and the new simulation, log ride.
not as scary as i expected it to be larh, but.. okay...
the 4D thingy was kinda cool.
haha! ok. then went to eat and went back.
yea.
and today, i just had to wake up late to go to school. damn.
alrights, so today ended well too.
syamil, asyiq and firah came down.
to coffee bean. theyre gonna be the new staffs there. + hana too. haha!
yea, so welcome to coffee bean guys. were leaving!
aha! bastard sak.
kk. thats it larh.
net is being sucha bitch that im sooooo damn lazy to upload alll the nice nice pix for you all to see.
for the saturday random outing pix wif zara and nures, check out these 2 blogs.
www.theglistening-novelette.blogspot.com
www.budakalim.blogspot.com
yea. enjoy the pix there.
alright. thats all.

ciao.

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Saturday, January 12, 2008♠

it was a great day.
err, maybe just a great ending. XP
and i dont wanna tell you guys where ive been or what ive done today.
coz its just, damn easy. awwww....
just damn easy... errr. kay that was stupid.
and i meant damn boring. but that stupid damn easy song just came up in my mind.
soo many random thoughts came up to my mind today.
so yea, understand what isnt supposed to be understood larh ehk?
well, just enjoy the videos i put up today yea?
make sure enjoy tau! jgn tk enjoy!
weeehoooo!~

games, stupidly childish games, but dman it kills time
and errr, i would like to call it the ABC game.

and these 2 videos is what i love to call the.. MATREP chess.
the buss ride was about 2hrs long, so that was the only way of killing time.
childish but its fun i tell you.
gay, but fun. hehe.

alright, chao.

AMIR~

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Thursday, January 10, 2008♠

and sometimes, its better if we let it be and wait.

AMIR~

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Monday, January 07, 2008♠

well. another video of our rendition of taufik's songs.
funny really. i cant help but laugh.
this isnt real. this is just crap.
so go on, take your time to watch it.
and laughurassout. coz it still doesnt change me.

ouh yea. today was just madness.
thats all. no more then that.
and i still havent got my bag. damn.
anybody wanna follow?

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.

Wednesday, January 02, 2008♠
pomkittipomkepomkittipomke.

its been the second day after the new year.
and somethings just stays the same.
ouh hell yea. so for all you dudes, chix && not forgetting homos too
this clip is just for you.

and yea, that was disgusting.
no gays or peeps were hurt in this video.
everything else is just purely coincidental.

so that was my 1st techno music video.
cool huh? nvr seen a techno music video before?
wel neither do i. so maybe this is one of the 1st ever made.
in the whole world, or galaxy, or even the universe! cool shit i tell you.

and that was another kewl video my mr. sam.
cool shit i tell you. that was what you call real shuffling.
alright alright, maybe its a lil bit out, but its definitely slick.
like the grp sleeq, but more sleeq-er. kwang3.

alrights, thats all folks! see you tmrw different time but always the same channel!

chillingzoutbaybehz! =)

AMIR~

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Tuesday, January 01, 2008♠

happy new year!
countdown at B2.
at amk hub.
so you guys must be wondering where it is.
its at basement 2 at amk hub.
there were no party whatsoever.
just the fairprice stocks and the rubbish collection centre.
and we celebrated it with a small bang.
haha! but its still memorable i guess? XP

aniwaes, no resolutions now.
other then the usual one.
trying to be a better person in life.
=)
and ill try not be lazy.
and do my holiday assignments now.
grrrrrr.. school sux.
haha!

kay ciao!

AMIR~

♠ Let's Shuffle.